Love Letters #419

"28 months of my life and I feel just as elated as the first day that we met. You have been such a powerful influence and driving force in my life, I could have never made it here without you. You have been integral to my success, a vital part of my perseverance, and simply the muse to all of my inspiration. Before you, I have tried to separate myself from romance. Tried to be this self-made individual that does not need anyone else to be successful. The truth of it all is, that I was wrong. I could have never made it through all of the hardship if it were not for you. You have inspired me to be more than I thought I could ever be. You have taken my hand when I felt like nothing. You have held me when I was scared, telling me that everything would be okay. Most of all, you’re patient. More patient than I could ever be. We are similar in a lot of ways but contrasting but complementary elements in others. I would not have asked for it any other way. We fit perfectly like a unique puzzle. One of a kind, but a perfect fit for each other. You’ve helped me grow into a better person, and I hope that that’s the person you want to be with forever. I love you, and I love how far we’ve come. It feels like the very first day, and I’m excited for the future we have ahead of us. I love you, Archel Arindaeng."

Love Letter #13804

"I wanted to take a minute to write about how much you mean to me. You mean the absolute world to me – without you, there is nothing. Without you, I would be broken, shattered, and unmendable. I would be a worse person. I would dip to lows and not know if I could ever recover. You are my light. For years before meeting you I thought that I was full of darkness. I believed that I was a bad spawn in a world that I did not deserve. I constantly broke myself down, hurt myself, and honestly believed that I could be nothing more than scum. I yearned for some kind of companionship but it was all superficial. I was the problem that ended all relationships. Meeting you showed me that there were people in this life that would like me for me. That I had some kind of presence in this world, rather than being another shadow. You made me feel like I could be myself for the first time. Everything was natural and I felt comfortable with myself. Deciding to reconnect with you was the best decision that I have ever made in my entire life. I know that now. These past few years as an “adult’ have been harder than I had ever imagined. I told myself that I had prepared for years for this kind of life, but I was nowhere near ready. You gave me the strength to overcome all of life’s obstacles. You gave me the support that I needed when I was completely broken down. You gave me life when I felt like I had nothing else. You gave me the light to cut through the darkness that had plagued me for my entire life. You are God’s greatest gift to me. It’s been two years since we’ve been together. Two years that have felt like just weeks, months… Nothing close to how much time has actually passed. It’s so hard to fathom, really.. that you have been with me through everything. Although our fights have never been completely earth shattering, I know that I have not been perfect to you. I have shown and expressed much less love than I should have. You have been nothing short of amazing to me and my only regret is that I have not treated you better. This year, my #1 resolution is that I will treat you like the princess that you are. That I will cherish you, love you, and care for you like the soulmate that you deserve. I will be your everything, and I will take care of you in the best of times, and the worst of times. I will not demand from you, I will not force anything upon you. I will be patient and kind to you. I love you, truly, deeply, and forever. You deserve it all. Thank you, Archel. Thank you for being with me. Thank you for loving me. You are the first person to truly do all of that. I love you."